Surviving

We get this one life to live. Some days I feel like I am on top of the world and some days I feel like am just surviving. Not living, just existing. Going through the motions. As if I am taking each breath, each day for granted.

Don’t just exist, live.

But why? We get this one life to live. One chance to make an impact. Be happy. Start a family. Define whatever it is your definition of success is.

And yet, here I am surviving. Wondering day to day what my purpose is. How am I going to make an impact? What brings me true joy?

I don’t want to just fill this void, this emptiness, for the sake of numbing a wound. I want to do something that lights my soul on fire.

Everyone has choices in life. Do you stay or go? Play it safe or take the risk? Choices can be funny though. “Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.” I feel that. In this season of life I know I have made the right choice but that doesn’t mean it is not hard at times.

Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.

Sometimes we need to take a step back, move at our own pace. And maybe even look at our situation through a different perspective, a different lens. And cry. Cry if you must, let it all out.

I was in my head too much. My emotions were taking over. I was letting the negative block out all the positive that was happening around me. I felt alone and isolated. I felt stuck and without a purpose.

The feeling comes and goes. It doesn’t last forever and some days I even catch myself smiling more and laughing more. Take each day as it comes. Don’t worry about what happened yesterday or what is to come tomorrow. Live in this moment right now. However you may be feeling and know this too will pass.

 

*I don’t really know what direction this post was going. But thanks for letting me share my scattered thoughts and emotions today.

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